Tuesday 25 September 2012

Musings on slowing down and waiting

It’s the end of September which means I am on holidays again… yippee no more school for 14 days… and yet… I am restless in my spirit. There must be more then this..It sounds crazy but the reality of not going back to Africa in October 2013 is really starting to sink in.. I read the website and program again and I am desperate to be there.. but yet I must wait..technically if I really wanted to go I could, but it would mean resigning from my job.. but do I really want to do that??? I am no quitter…
Listen to me I havent even been to Africa yet for the first time and I am already planning my trip back there.. Crazy right? I need the peace that passes all understanding.. I am desperate for more I am tired of waiting. I said to a friend today. There better be something pretty darn good on the other side of the waiting… something worth waiting for! I am restless too because for so long 11 weeks- I have been busy. Early mornings. long days… kids wanting my attention and paperwork piling up on my desk.. It’s hard to slow down- seems almost surreal that I can.. I had been counting down all week for this moment where there is no alarm to wake up and the knowledge that the day is my own….
There must be more than this..
John 3:30
He must become greater; I must become less…
Psalm 37:23
The steps of the good [woman] are ordered by the Lord and he delights in [her] way.
Have your way in me Lord.. Lead me on paths of righteousness… Teach me about waiting with patience when the restlessness kicks in. Give me joy in the moment.  Make me an instrument of your peace….

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